This week I have had several friends contact me about being in old head spaces and falling into old patterns. This can be really discouraging, to think that you have come so far and feel so fragile. But let me tell you, you are strong and this doesn't mean you are any less far along or any less of a warrior. Going through something traumatic, no matter what it is, is like having a part of yourself stuck in that moment forever, or at least until healing happens. Long after the event is over, know and unknown triggers occur, placing you in that exact moment over and over and over again. Every part of your brain and body believes it is back in that moment goes back into survival mode. This was my life for a long time, the triggers got so bad, the panic attacks took over my life. I didn't leave my house and if I did, it was hell.
It's hard to imagine myself as that person again, it's been a long journey. I stand before you completely trigger free, no longer trapped in those moments. I took my power back from the people/places/things who stole it from me.
I found key to overcoming a panic attack is to let myself know I was NOT back there by affirming "This is a new day, one I have never lived before. I am a new person. I will never be back in that space again." Over and over and over with every breathe.
Another important thing to do is cut the energetic cord that attaches you to that moment. This can be done a number of ways, but I use visualization. Imagine a cord from my body to the event. I separate the cord into two. One is everything that continues to serve me. The other is everything that drains and harms me. I imagine a great sword severing the second cord and sealing off the end. This can also be done with people and relationships. It is important to always send whatever it is on the other side of the severed cord love and light, so they no longer feel a need to reattach. After this process I say out loud "And so it is." it's pretty simple, it works and it's changed my life.
I am a powerful force, I am not a victim, I am strong. And so are you.
Love to you.