The wounds of "You're too much"

For those of us who have been broken by this phrase, the echos dig deep, cracking us at our foundation.

It begins in childhood, you're being yourself and there is a moment, where you realize, people are looking. And in that moment, life shifts. You become a bit less of yourself.

That nervous feeling takes it's place and you begin to lose that natural vibration of you.

"Don't be too much."
"Don't draw attention to yourself."
"Don't do anything stupid."

Is the soundtrack to how we show up in life. And we continue to bury our light.

Don't be too much for your best friend, they'll leave you.
Don't be too much for your partner, they'll leave you.

But when our kids come in, the oddest thing happens. We begin to feel like not enough.

And it is my deepest belief that it is because they require all that we are but have stuffed and forgotten.

So we are then stuck in this pushing and pulling, not wanting to be too much and then yearning to be enough.

Jammed between this lifelong programming and being torn apart by what our children need from us.

It's time to show up all the way.

Those things that send sparks up your spine? You must make time for. To get back to you, is watching how your children show up to life. Through play. Through touch. Through passion.

Once you follow the frequency of passion, life has no choice but keep bringing that to you, by shifting your focus from "I better not be too much" into claiming "I deserve to take up space."

Because how do our young children take up space? Without shame. Without guilt. Without second thought, they show up. All the way.

When we begin to pull on the threads and feel deep ache of where they are rooted, where they are too tight, where they are holding your authenticity back, you can sit in the origin and change your mind.

I am not too much.
I deserve to be here.
It's safe for me to be seen.
It's safe for me to be all the way me.

Those who may think you are too much will fall away AND THAT IS OKAY. You are moving in a direction they cannot follow. You are moving into yourself and all of the lovley things you are and always have been that you forgot.

It's safe to be too much for some people. You get to show up all the way for yourself and those growing with you.